* Nothing Special

...is two sides to a story.

xo

anna

* Go

Luck can mean

taking advantage of a situation

at the right moment

so,

good luck.

xo

anna

* Study Break

make some noise for adam & kai doing an umbilical brothers

omgawd i suck.
too much chaucer & the seven deadly sins led to this:

PRIDE
01. How much do you love yourself? bits & pieces
02. Do you strongly believe in yourself and everything you do? only in some things
03. What accomplishments have you made in your life which you are most proud of? finishing high school? being able to perform in front of a crowd i guess
04. What are your talents? singing & making people happy haha ;)
05. How many competitions have you won? a speech competition in primary & 2nd in a band comp sometime
06. Are you a bad loser? when i was lil.. now, not really :)
07. Are you known to be vain? depends
08. Have you ever cheated on something so that you could win or get a higher result? yea so baaaad
09. How many times a day do you think; "Yeah, I'm a great person"? zero?
010. Are your parents proud of you? no they're asian.

ENVY
01. Do you get easily jealous? i'm not a jealous type, but no one can escape it :P
02. When was the last time you were jealous, what of and why? of anyone who AINT studying... JUST BECAUSE
03. Who, out of anyone, would you trade lives with and why? as above
04. Have you ever acted out of spite due to pure jealousy, and nothing else? aw i have no juice to spill here
05. What do your friends have that you want? stability
06. Who do you wish you looked like? angelina jolie, every grls dream right? hehe
07. Has a guy dumped you to go out with a better looking girl?: not yet :O
08. Have you ever been jealous of a TV/movie character? dont think so
09. Which singer's voice would you love to have? mariah carey ...just imagine hittin those notes
010. What about an actress's acting abilities? no one awesome stands out atm

GLUTTONY
01. Do you have an issue or problem with your weight? what grl doesnt ;)
02. Do you spend a lot of money on food? yea
03. How much alcohol can you consume on a night out? not enough to feel like crap the next day :)
04. How many times a day do you think about food? whenever i'm hungry or see something nice
05. Sweet or savoury? i need a balance of both! weird, huh?
06. What has been the largest amount of desert you have eaten in one sitting? pancakes on the rocks.. devil's delight i think? i'll finish it one day
07. Do you eat out a lot? now & then
08. Are your portion sizes generally large? normal
09. Do you LIVE for food? used to :P i suck
010. Can you successfully diet without feeling hungry? i wish :(

LUST
01. In love, or lust? love
02. Do you think about sex often? omgawd it's everywhere. how can't you?
03. Are you a virgin? i no kiss & tell ;)
04. How many 'penises' have you seen [real]? hahaha
05. Have/do you ever masturbate? all the time!
06. Do you often eye up hot guys you see and think 'mmm'? mmhmm
07. Do you enjoy watching sex scenes in movies or on TV? all the time!
08. Are you horny often? all the time!
09. If you're not a virgin, when was the last time?: damn baby me so horny
010. Who do you have crushes on? no one special ;)

ANGER
01. GRRR. How do you vent your anger? through music or words - either singing, playing, listening, reading or writing :)
02. Are you generally just a very angry person all around? nah
03. Do you get violent when you're angry? only if they're violent first
04. Do you hold grudges? if it's really bad
05. What makes you angry? intolerance, narrow-mindedness & ignorance (sometimes)
06. Who was the last person you got angry with and why? the rents... because. GEEZ how typical :P
07. Have you ever slapped/punched someone? just for fun
08. Do you 'talk' back? too much
09. Do you ever get annoyed by really tiny things? what a waste of time :)
010. What are your pet peeves? people who put others down (like me! the easy target) to make themselves feel that tiny bit better... damn straight. BULLIES. haha they know who they are

GREED
01. Do you always 'want' what you can't have? too often. but no one likes a whiner :(
02. Do you constantly desire lots of money? if it helps a lotta people
03. If you won the lottery, would you keep it all for yourself, give some to charity or dish some out to your family and friends?: all of the above
04. Do you crave fame and fortune? fame? no. fortune? yes please.
05. Have you ever wondered what it would be like to have the world at your feet? that's dangerous... mm
06. Do you demand a lot at christmas and birthdays? never
07. Do you have a credit card? i wish
08. If someone dropped $ 20 on the floor, would you give it to them or keep it? give it baaack
09. Are a lot of your clothes expensive? not really, a few
010. Would you take a really degrading job if it paid a lot of money? i doubt it :P

SLOTH
01. Are you lazy? yeeaaah
02. Do you avoid walking, if you can? not always :)
03. Do you sleep in on the weekends? yea its a must
04. If you could, would you spend hours sitting on your bum either on the computer or watching TV? computer fosho
05. Do people ever comment on your laziness? the rents do
06. Would you rather use the remote than change the channel on the TV itself? i love the digital remote
07. Rather take a bus or drive than walk to your destination? forgot the third option! get someone else to drive you ;)
08. How often do you exercise? once or twice a week - swim or gym - i cant decide hehe
09. Do you ALWAYS do your chores... or not? if i'm asked to or not living at home
010. Do you constantly procrastinate? let's see... what am i doing two nights before a hsc exam?

xo

anna

(feels stupid for wasting time on this)

* Eye Candy

how to make a flop:

#1 add a teen heartthrob

#2 throw in some stars

#3 shake ur ass

#4 mix it with love

videos by matt ;)

xo

anna

(is sorry she stuffed the 2nd verse!)

* 88

friday the 13th

seems like everyone's out tonight ;)

i'm just...

sitting

wondering what i'm doing

thinking

about people i'm missing

trying

not to think about everything else

using

another way to express myself as i'm

hiding

everything again

& craving.

just wanting to find home.

xo

anna

edit:

i blame black friday for this post

* 85

for the longest time

I remember...


rivers
bridges
cold
vietcong in trees
smoke
path picker
microwave cakes
maccas overdose
study
MAN GO WOAH
laugh attacks
emos & hobos
swarms
heat


& to be continued ;)


xo
anna

* Distractions

traffic jams

so i'm sitting here typing my crime fic essay
& i hear it.



a woman keeps screaming
screaming
& screaming
outside



it's coming from the apartment across from us.



you can't see anything
but you can tell she's terrified



i hear a man's voice yelling too






damn domestic violence






...great time to be thinking about legal studies huh?



xo
anna

* Voices

one is never enough

first up

props to xiao & em

great parties

...so much fo sleep ;)

& go the CHOI family :)

there's been too much singstar lately
& this song keeps coming up:

She's taking her time making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying, "Mama never loved her much"
And, "Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection"
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come

lol

i remember i used to love this song

nice choice.

study hard

& later

we party harder ;)

...home is where the heart is?

xo
anna

* A Song

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small

I've been drawing the line and watching it fall

You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart

Watching us fading and watching us fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough

Coz I gave it all to you

And if you leave me now

Oh just leave me now

It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender

It's been too long pretending

There's no use in trying

When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in

Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin

Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done

But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough

Coz I gave it all to you

And if you leave me now

Oh just leave me now

It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender

It's been too long pretending

There's no use in trying

When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

This is not from

self pity

school stressin

boy probs

friendship fallouts

or other stupid shit

just listen.

xo

anna

* Numbers

carlo speaks for us all at the grad ceremony

BEFORE (for 12 years)

AFTER!

one graduation

two tears

three parties

four days

five aways

six songs

se7enteen

eight in the car

nine are divine

ten drinks

eleven dollars please

twelve hours of Zzz

thirteen sleepin

thirty sluts

hundreds of flashing cams

of faces to miss

...twenty days left to study.

it's funny how in the time where there's so much to say
i can't seem to put anything into words

This week, everything changed.

much love to chubbs, my other choi sis

thanks for everything

We'll get through this.

Tell me you love me

Come back and hug me

Oh, and I rush to the start

Running in circles

Chasing our tails

Coming back as we are

xo

anna