* Now

more music



Push on,
keep moving.

xo
anna

* Quiet

you may delay, but time will not.

first up,
MERRY CHRISTMAS ;)
hope eryone had a nice one.

family time
...what's there not to love?

hah

hmm
watching donnie darko on christmas
ain't a good idea aye

oh yea
you've got mail.

check it & keep the 6th free ;)

woah.
a new year comin up already huh?

I guess it's expected to make resolutions or whatever
but still, might as well aim to make those lil changes day by day

we waste way too much time.
too much money.
& usually on what... ourselves?


ana's resolutions
have more time for eryone else
show some mo luurrve
needs > wants
make up for 12 years of wasted effort


maybe I'm goin on bout this
cos like ery other asian or other families out there
christmas has never been about the fat man & his presents ;)

esp. if you went to a private primary school etc
& watched kids flaunting their toys
always askin fo this & this
& POOF
omgawd it's there!

lol
who needs toys, when they break ;)

family & friends are always first yea?

take it fo granted if you like
...but what would you have left in the end?


nothing.



patiently waiting


xo
anna

* Rush

when it rains, it pours

...so they say
but i'll wait for it to go

hey
guess who's back

hmm

I miss my old bus stop.

even though
it was in this dodgy dark corner near parra station
in front of the hungry jacks

I miss catching the last late night bus.

I miss seeing what kinda people
stumbled outta the hotel across the street.

I miss watching grown men
shit their pants
& scurry into the shelter of hungry jacks
when the drunks wandered towards the bus stop.

I miss random convos with spanish men
leaving the gym.

It's so easy to miss those lil things ;)

haha

it's funny
when you're so awake & sober
on a fri/sat night train home..

after watchin people
stumble/throw up/sing/bang doors/scream

it kinda makes you hope
that you don't look like that at all.

uh oh.

I swear
alcohol is like the 4th main meal of an aussie's diet.


ana's usual list

pasta
pancakes
pho
blue
mexican
tourists
lights
paintball
buffet
late night chats
edwin's ;)
nice socks
epping
ghosts
lake
carols in the domain
anna r's ;)
riviera
walks
kebab
rest
5
timing
.
carols
results.
catch up
uai.
year 12 brekkie
pris' @ matt's ;)
pancakes
circular quay
rain.
eiger swiss
retail therapy
;->


CONGRATS
to all you eligible bachelors & bachelorettes

esp.
those who won premiers
topped the state (or close to it)
or are jus damn happy ;)

school leavers
all have a chance
to move on right?

since there's thousands of options
hundreds of offers
dozens there for support
& one number to work with for now..

me?
all i can say is..
never trust the board of studies.
it's just a flawed system
or maybe
they're just too damn tight.

you work hard for 6 years
& face difficulties
you can't control
to reach a decent UAI

& the board is left to decide yes or no.
to help a student get a decent uni course?
or
have them achieve much less than their potential
& be left wonderin what the hell plan C is?

whatever.

I know we're at fault to an extent

but
fuck you board of studies.

thanks for screwing over countless people.

if you think people don't deserve UAI's
or hand out UAI's that are 20 below
what they should have gotten.

go for it.

look,
they even made me an angry person :(

not cool huh?

omgawd
I hear bats outside my window.

anyway
hope eryone's happy
& lookin forward to kickin ass in the future

below 75 means..
you gotta try jus that lil bit more
to kick ass yea?

OKAY

moving on...

oh yea

MERRY CHRISTMAS
HAPPY (shopping) BOXING DAY
HAPPY NEW YEAR
umm
i've run outta more.


take care!
esp. if you've jetted off already ;)


catch up soon
at my place ;)


xo
anna

* Rain

And so it is
Just like you said it would be...


she ran too far
to escape those pulling her back
all those lil things, big things
leaving it all behind
forgetting
everything
everyone

only to look behind

& fall short.

faces stared back
with
disappointment
anger
& even, pity
in their eyes

she could see the damage..
all the pieces that fell apart

& she wonders if it's too late now?


xo
anna

* Blue

I'll let the waves
Wash over me




xo
anna

* Changes

byron

my phone cam had to do
in the last few days
(damn dodgy stealing repairmen)

hello freedom
goodbye past

back.

i've slowly messed up.
guess it's time to pick up some pieces
& fix this jigsaw i've pulled apart..

i don't know if you'll ever read this
but there's not much i can say now
cept,

i'm sorry.

& thank you.




still,
sometimes
it's good to know
you're not alone :)




this is gonna be long. real long.
there's a lot to remember.

but firrst
eryone's overseas
or flying away soon

so take care ;)

have fun
whether you're
makin music
touring
shopping

...bring me back some lurve?


anyway
my memory & numbers don't mix
so i cbf putting dates to events ;)

in some kinda order..

retail therapy
napolean
sheraton
gay anthems
balloons
too gone, not funny
coogee sunrise
thanks hobro

then we had our fun 13 hr train & bus ride to byron!

laura, sq, pierre, prue, jasper, lenni, kiat & me +
almost perfect secluded beach +
squishy sand? +
bluebottles +
sea views +
tiny apartment +
homecookin +
LOTS of morgan =
schoolies

we chilled a lot.
we beached it a lot.
we slept a lot.
we ate a lot.

getting wasted & high ery night?
nah.


triggers:

suffolk park
first fun

clarkes beach
tightass tuesday
twister

family guy-a-thon
kebabs
bonfire
marshmellows & potatoes

windy kayaking
dolphins 2m away :)
burn baby burn
sex on the beach
(mm cocktails)

borat
visitors
beach
goonee.

beach bum
thai @ byron

rainy day
deb & bill's
lighthouse

main beach
sushi train
emotions

& movies. lots of em.
incl. not another teen movie about four times?
omgawd.


can't forget...
MORGAN
(get a room ;P)
being bitten by erything that could bite
(cept laura)
ball fights
bed swaps
noises
poking
endless games
lenni's concoctions
nice hair

& sq's classic lines
hehe
i love them.

guy: (takes a photo of something our direction)
me: did that guy just take a photo of you, sarah?
sq: (half buried in sand) what!
guy: (starts to walk past)
sq: HEY. did you take a photo of me?
guy: no? uh, do you want me to take one?
sq: NO.

there were so many more
wish i could remember..

my souvenir from byron?
call me cheap, call me asian
but i like my $4 . 50 sushi train plate thanks ;)

haha

oh & i actually turned a colour now.

damn

but it's good to be back in sydney
& to nice food.
so i've been eating out ery night now..

oops $

happy bday to edwin!
SMILE.

& to big kev!
paintball, here we come ;)

now
i'm just craving
the beach
and
sleeping safe & sound
..again



Feeling good
is all about control



xo
anna